Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Update On Weight Loss

Since I haven't spoke in a good time, I decided to do a quick update on where I am on my weight loss. My highest starting weight was 156 lbs. It has taken approximately 3 weeks for me to get from 156 to my current weight of 146. So far I have lost approx 10 lbs and have 13 lbs to go till I meet my first weight goal of 133 lbs. I have decided that for my accomplishment of my weight lost I will have my belly button pierced either near or when I reach my first or second weight goal. The first week of trying to get back on track is really hard. You have to resist those temptations of junk food and cramming things into your mouth. I combated this by chewing gum. Stride gum to be exact and I couldn't believe how well it helped along with telling myself that I didn't need to be eating so late. Anxious to see what I will look like once this is all done. Might even wear a bikini........might.

A Liitle Too Comfortable In That Comfort Zone!

Coming across a new acquaintance, I was in a battle with my comfort zone and my conscious telling me to be more ambitious. This acquaintance happens to be the opposite sex and I wanted to get to know him more, but the warm loving arms of my comfort zone kept pulling me back. So I started thinking to myself that maybe this is why my life is so boring and why I don't have many actively social friends that find something to do almost every weekend. When it comes to the opposite sex, I have criteria just like any women does. These criteria are not ones that have been decided through experience but through situations that I have seen elsewhere.

I started searching the internet for advice on how to break out of your comfort zone. One site stated that you should face your fears. I'm thinking, "hmmm...I don't have fears." But I continued to think and realized that I do have a fear. A fear that holds me back socially. When it comes to men, I decide on criteria that will keep me safe from the things that go wrong in a relationship. Ones that make me look like a fool. So my fear is being advantage of and ending up heartbroken. When it comes to meeting knew people, my fear is that people will think I'm an r-tard (retard) or something else.

But there is something I wish I had. I wish I had the gift of gab, in moderation at least. If someone starts talking to me about one thing, I briefly have a conversation with them and then go quite. I can't seem to get myself to show more interest about someone without interrogating them, question after question and I don't want to seem nosy. Especially if I can't relate to their response but still want to get to know them. I guess it's something that will come in time. But I will be trying harder to do things out of my comfort zone.